If you aren't in control, no one is. Which happens. But you have to focus on control...whatever it takes. Whatever WORKS do it. Whatever DOESN'T work, bag it. When things get overwhelming, it helps to realize that it is perfectly normal to feel out of control under your circumstances. The key is what are you doing about it, not the fact that you have lost control. Losing control is something that happens to all of us one way or another. Just remember that YOU know best what you are experiencing. THEY may be able to figure out what it means, but too often they try to fit your personal story to the easiest explanation. You have to keep them focused on your personal situation. Modern medicine serves 90% of the population well (assuming insurance pays for it!)...but sometimes you fall into the 10% that medical personnel (and I have helped TRAIN medical personnel and worked with doctors) are poorly equipped to deal with.

You WILL take control. THat is pretty obvious. But do so from as much personal empowerment and knowledge as you can.

And for the record, my wife LOVED acupuncture and can recommend a good person if you need it. Couldn't always afford it, but she thought it really did something.